Wednesday, December 22, 2021
We don't know how to go on without you! It was always you, Bill and me. I am lost without you! I am sorry I let you down mom I should've got you to the doctor maybe they could've caught it and we would be celebrating Christmas? Thank you to my brother Pat his wife Jen and their 2 beautiful daughters Hannah and Meg....I pray for all of you as well that the visions of her be erased and the better memories come back ( like when we made a slide with the coach and a mattress lol). I don't know what to do anymore without you here with us! I am praying for the nightmare to end but I know it won't it will get harder as days go on. I love you more then you will ever know! I am sorry I am selfish I want you here with me and Billy cause I really don't v know how to go on.
